After enduring many years of being subject to a strange situation whereby you are effectively 'gang stalked' by your local community and fall into the Psychiatic trap, as suffering from delusional thinking or from 'having episodes' and given a dismissive 'institutionally informed/groomed' response and led to drink from the well of bad treatments and inept staff proudly displaying superiority and blind faith in the 'chemical imbalance' theory as their shared stake of salary and career rest upon this almost 'cult' like sect, as I privately learned to unravel the meaning and methods of the unspoken reality of me vs the perp's virtual post truth pixelated world, (or which also could in my eyes be compared to a type of cult) taking time to learn about tribal gaslighting, collective narcissism, subvocalization, ambient abuse and basic counter surveillance tricks.
These are just some of the topics that have helped me to prevent being subjected to even more severe PTSD or more specifically being 'triggered' by the ongoing intentions of the local community, it's a bit like a trauma bond within your conscience, as you know not to give an emotional response and stay perfectly poker faced so to avoid seeing the gratification/satisfaction upon their faces, when you are traumatized by their subtle actions.
I suppose in brief I am due to this ongoing persistent situation properly suffering from PTSD and it's not something that is only present within more serious cases like rape victims or service men/women, even though it can be brushed aside, I think it's knowing the landscape, the people's mindsets, and what's happened to me before when I was much younger.
I can't move like I would prefer due to having a current cancer scare and I am finically reliant upon the state, even though I have been threatened with prosecution for taking up part time work, as the DWP spun this into a fraud case.
So, I am sitting here keeping mainly to myself, thinking of when I was about 14 when things turned for the worst and continued to do so, I have been watching the cheesy and laughable horror films and crappy old bands just to help myself get through this time, most of all spend time dreaming of escaping too someplace else whilst smoking some not bad home grown.
Well, sorry if this post is muddled my laptop is on its last legs.
These are just some of the topics that have helped me to prevent being subjected to even more severe PTSD or more specifically being 'triggered' by the ongoing intentions of the local community, it's a bit like a trauma bond within your conscience, as you know not to give an emotional response and stay perfectly poker faced so to avoid seeing the gratification/satisfaction upon their faces, when you are traumatized by their subtle actions.
I suppose in brief I am due to this ongoing persistent situation properly suffering from PTSD and it's not something that is only present within more serious cases like rape victims or service men/women, even though it can be brushed aside, I think it's knowing the landscape, the people's mindsets, and what's happened to me before when I was much younger.
I can't move like I would prefer due to having a current cancer scare and I am finically reliant upon the state, even though I have been threatened with prosecution for taking up part time work, as the DWP spun this into a fraud case.
So, I am sitting here keeping mainly to myself, thinking of when I was about 14 when things turned for the worst and continued to do so, I have been watching the cheesy and laughable horror films and crappy old bands just to help myself get through this time, most of all spend time dreaming of escaping too someplace else whilst smoking some not bad home grown.
Well, sorry if this post is muddled my laptop is on its last legs.
